"we wont be kissing tonight..."

"WHATTTT? i dont care if hes a troll or 3 feet tall you go with him!!"on when a boy wants to take you to tucanos. this was the last thing i heard before i went on my date Thursday night. most first dates of mine go like this-but this one didnt

It was in reference to this: "yeah like something really good. like tucanos or carrabbas." -neither of which i have been to. Let me first start off by saying i dont think first dates should be super expensive things because it makes me personally feel awkward and pressured to basically fall in love with the dude. I left him waiting for about 15 minutes while i consulted with friends, room mates and my mom. I didnt even really need to bother with my mom because i knew she'd be all for it...and she was. It was a last minute date and i wasnt even ready so i responded with ahh i have to get ready then...to which he responded awesome! umm ok, i didnt know that was a yes, well i guess i'm going. About 45 minutes later theres a knock on the door and standing there is...lets call him Chris and might i add hes a fellow East coaster like myself.
We definitely did not have this problem...

We walk out to the car and Chris goes " i hope this isnt weird but you smell great." check.- always a goal of mine. "when the wind blew i just got a wiff and its nice." Dont worry instead of simply saying thank you i then start rambling about how i accidentally bought boy gel and it smells like a boy and then i cant stop so i just go on and on. I know this probably sounds like it was awkward but it wasnt, Chris laughed at everything i said. He follows up with "well i dont think you smell like a boy." He doesnt ask me where i wanna go or anything he just starts driving, which is good because on a first date i dont wanna make too many decisions haha. Call my lazy but i just want him to plan it. I warn him that i dont like awkward dates- no pressure right and he laughs and goes "well now i'm gonna play footsy under the table and try to hold you close." As were getting closer to the Riverwoods i casually ask where were going, a question to which i was pretty sure i already knew the answer. "Tucanos." Btw Tucanos is expensive."well i havent been to any of these places-we can go to any of these..." "Are you a vegetarian.?" pause. "yes." i tried lying because i felt bad. "Has anyone ever told you youre a terrible liar?" "oh all the time, but a lot of time people think i'm lying when i'm not cause i always smile.""We really dont need to eat here...""its okay i have a real job ;)" We walk in and he holds doors and all that date stuff. After we get seated the waiter comes over and tells us about the brazilian lemonades. I ignore this, fully intent on getting water. Chris orders two. "I was just gonna order water..." Then the guy tells us we can get started. For those of you who havent been to tucanos theres like a buffet of sides and things and then the waiters just bring around all this meat and asks if you want it and then put it on your plate. So basically every 4 minutes another guy with another type of meat is at your table. Not gonna like its kinda overwhelming and i didnt know what to do. I think its a place i would go with a bunch of friends but not on a date. The date was going surprisingly well. I can sum it up into three topics:

1.kissing

2. compliments

3. awkward

No, not because the date itself was awkward or bc we kissed . Please guys, it was the first date...sooo somehow awkward first date stories came up and then awkward first kiss stories. i am NOT prepared for this. He tells me both of his but i dont move to tell anything. He persists."Do you kiss on the first date?" "Well i dont kiss boys." "ever??" "nope." "oh" "i mean boys have kissed me but i last time that happened i punched him..." "YOU WHAT?" hes laughing...i'm not. "I'm serious-it wasnt hard" "Well when i kiss you i'll wear a football helmets and shoulder pads so you know its coming and then it wont hurt when you punch me" A little presumptious huh. He asks me to teach him some signs-just take a guess what sign he wanted to know first....kiss. He tells me about some of his moves and how girls kiss him on the first date. I inform him that he picks some classy ladies. I also tell him now he cant try those moves on me thank goodness but then tell him they wouldnt have worked anyway. He then goes ill just have to be "real" now. I think this was a move...Then onto the compliments. He compliments my earrings, my style, he tells me i seem so cultured partially bc i had a specific fav place in NY{well if anyone brings up New York i could tell you everything...}. I really like compliments but when theres a lot i dont like it.He also told me that when i'm really into talking about something? that i lift my eyebrow almost like the rock. COOL. I then spend the next 5 minutes holding my eyebrow down. "No its cute! i really like it." So he wanted to pretend it was my birthday but i didnt feel like standing on my chair so i said how bout we pretend its yours? He was all for it but then we forget so at the end he goes "how about we pretend that its my birthday another time...at another restaurant?" I am watching the birthday boy embarrass himself and pretend i dont hear. I didnt know if i wanted to committ to anything yet but then he asks me again. I dont think pretending i didnt hear again would work...so i agree. When the check comes he pushes it towards me with his hand still on it and i go to grab it and he pulls it back. The bill was a little ridiculous bc well the restaurant is a little ridiculous. On the way home he is being so funny and singing to the music...terribly i might add haha but i love it when guys do this. He insisted i join in but i opted out. Sorry not comfortable enough witcha yet boy. As he parks he goes okay- i know how you feel about awkwardness and dates so i'm gonna walk you up and just hug you and then go okay? Hahah "thanks for the play by play." No really, thanks. So he did and i apologized that he had a good drive ahead of him but he goes "it was worth it" and then stood around so then i start to panick and ramble about how this was a reason i didnt like dates and he basically grabbed me and hugged me and turned to leave real fast haha. Well thats one way to get them to go i guess...The date went really well-i even sent a post date text...even though i wanted him to but i was told the girl is supposed to do it...I had a lot of fun though and then right after that date another guy called and asked me on a date. 4 dates in one week! Except due to my lovely work and school schedule i can barely go on one...
To sum up my thoughts on dating, boys & committment...lets be real though


i must have some bc when jared comes over and says "well whats wrong with him? sounds great" i pause."stop trying to think/make up flaws." "i can though..just wait." "i know you can..."
xoxo CAIT xoxo

"this is the WORST"

Sometimes when you type try to type in nah it gets autocorrected to Baghdad...yes autocorrect, Baghdad is the word i was looking for, i mean since i use that word so much...Sometimes i am concerned people are watching K and i right before we go running like yesterday when we were doing impresonations of us almost falling asleep at the temple. Sometimes watching just 2 min of the coneheads results in an alien voice the rest of the day. Sometimes i am yelling in the phone and Heather turns around looking apalled until i tell her i am yelling at the robot at the bank so all is well. But sometimes yelling at a robot isnt really helpful because they just ask you to repeat what you said over and over again and then the whole situation just gets old. Sometimes youre standing in a circle with a bunch of 19 and 20 year olds who are all talking about how baby hungry they are and you look at your watch and cant help but saying how literally hungry you are...lunch anyone? And sometimes you cant help but think youre a little different bc well babies are so far from your mind right now its not even funny. Sometimes the bus driver thinks its cool that you work at Ruby River and decides to give you all his valuable steak information for 25 MINUTES. Sometimes you are this close to jumping off the bus.."thats ok i'll walk" bc you really cant bare to hear one more thing about a porterhouse steak. Sometimes your movie picking privileges are revoked when you pick a movie like Paranorman and your room mate falls asleep. I would really recommend not seeing this movie for about 10 reasons. Sometimes FHE this week is that really awkward game where youre blindfolded and people make animal noises and you get animals like ostrich and dinosaur. REALLY guys? and for some reason you love the awkward game. Sometimes after watching Rock of Ages you cant help but again think that you should have been alive in the 80's because not only is the music your favorite but just everything. Check it out.

or this version of one of my all time FAVORITE songs.

Sometimes when the most attractive boy in your ward says he wouldnt mind getting thrown up against a wall and kissed you realize nose goes is probably not the most appropriate way to handle that situation. Sometimes you take some friends to this supposed dance party but when you go nobodys dancing and everybodys just staring at the DJ. Sometimes everybody is staring at you all and you realize you forgot your mustaches and hipster glasses and uh well this is awkward. Then sometimes the boy your with goes "uh wheres your "friend"?" and you pretend like you cant find him bc well hes looking a little cray with his long hair and insaneo dance moves. Dont worry though theres always heather to point out which one he is and tell you that you need to stay and at least say hi but the door is really calling your name...lets be real,this was an awkward situation that no one could handle. Sometimes you have been spending a lot of time in cemetarys lately...lets blame Halloween on this. Sometimes when you and a friend spend a certain amount of money on jerseys you get free jazz tickets to the game on Saturday but you work. Oh and sometimes you feel a little satisfaction when you hear all your room mates saying "this is the worst" or "youre the worst" and know that you are the one to blame and if you could stop saying it yourself you would. Sometimes ignorance is bliss bc after being forced to watch this horrible diabetes video in class and now i feel the need to scare everyone with my new found knowledge, including myself. Sometimes i feel like the boy next to me is looking over and reading this post and i am feeling uncomfortable. Is this funny too boy? Its like that feeling when people read your blog outloud to you like you forgot what you wrote and its embarassing. Sometimes dennys is the best place to meet cute boys, have pumpkin pancakes and get excited for The Hobbit. Sometimes when boys say "doesnt she remind you of Natasha?" and the other boy goes "nah, Natasha reminds me of her" and they dont even know you its pretty hilarious. Sometimes the best boy advice you get is from your boss and then "oh dont worry i dont makeout" comes out of your mouth and you then the only solution is to awkwardly walk away. Sometimes one of the nice notes you get is "i hope you find love this week. Oh and you have great hair." and sometimes its from a boy and you had no idea you were looking for love? Sometimes going throughout the day and saying "i bet they voted for obama.." when someone says or does something stupid makes the whole situation a lot more comical.

On to quotes:

"Heather is acting like Jared wants to kill her"

"Uh Jared is acting like Jared wants to kill me"

"Lets make a rule beforehand that you have to buy the icecream before you can kiss the boy a second time"

"Great i will never have to buy icecream then..."

"my teeth arent as white as white as they used to be-oh no i'm letting myself go!"

hunter staring at the pile of money

"i worked the corner...i only made $30, how much do i suck?"

"depends how long you were out there"

"no, they probably wont know they are supposed to give you a nice ring...theyll probably try to give you some twine or something."

"no the stripling warriors are super hot"

"nowhere in the scriptures does it say that..."

"if you cant find a husband in 1,000 years then you are in some serious trouble"

"jared you wont buy your wife a dog?"

"if we did have a dog it would be an outdoor dog and i would build it a doghouse"

"how mean jared!...you can only do that if you put akitchen and a dining room in there. Maybe some carpet and curtains too.."

"wait was it you wont buy your dog a wife?"

"guess who told me to turn in here? the spirit."
"whadd up spirit?!"

"boys and i do it all the time"
"wait...."

"Caitlin! hes gonna fall in love with you!"
"i'm falling in love with you..."
"well this just got weird."

"its the best feeling in the world...better than love!"

{on rejecting boys/kissed}

xoxo cait xoxo